What happen to me??

There has been a very long time i din write any blog. Not because of busy but is because of lazy!! Feel so boring at Miri coz really have nothing to do with. Yesterday i just came back from batu nia, my cousin house is over there. Driving there on sunday nite after playing basketball at church. Since monday is public holiday so my cousin family and i drive to Bintulu to shopping. But then there is more sien than miri but at least seldom go there. Walk walk and see see around. Go back niah in the evening and having steamboat for dinner at my cousin house. Still leave approx. 3 weeks time in miri. Finally can leave the boring place, but then feel like going to miss here alot lol.

Lately dunno wat happen on me. It is quite a long time i din chat wif someone because both of us is seldom online. But then when saw someone online i din chat wif someone, after someone offline then i regret y din chat. i think is because scare ignore by someone ba.... Really try hard to keep contact but then just afraid of getting ignored. I saw a wall post in facebook by my friend, CK which describe my feeling now, i think.....

曾经有人做过实验，将一条最凶猛的鲨鱼和一群热带鱼放在同一个池子，然后用强化玻璃隔开；最初，鲨鱼每天不断冲撞那块看不见的玻璃，可是这只是徒劳，它始终都不能过到对面去，而实验人员每天都要放一些鲫鱼在池子里，所以鲨鱼也从没缺少猎物，只是它依然想过对面去，想尝试那美味的滋味，每天都在不断的冲撞那块玻璃；它试了每个不同的角落，每次都用尽全力，但是每次都弄得伤痕累累，有好几次弄到浑身破裂出血，这样子持续了一段日子；每当玻璃出现裂痕，实验人员马上加上一块更厚的玻璃。

后来，鲨鱼也不再去撞那块玻璃了，对那些斑斓的热带鱼也不再在意，就好像它们只是墙上会动的壁画，它开始等着每天固定会出现的鲫鱼，然后用它敏捷的本能进行狩猎，像是找回大海中那不可一世的凶猛霸气；但是这一切只不过是假象罢了，实验到最后阶段，实验人员将玻璃取走，但鲨鱼却没有反应，每天都在固定的范围游着，它不但对那些热带鱼视若无睹，甚至于当那些鲫鱼逃到对面去，它就立刻放弃追逐，说什么也不愿过去。 只有经过失恋的人才会知道为什么，因为它怕再受到伤害。

Although i nvr start a relationship wif anyone before, but i think my feeling is just like the shark, scare getting hurt again. But i don wan just to give up as wat it do. I need time to prepare myself to fight again. Although i not sure either tat time the someone is still single or not but i will try.....